Contour line drawing of blind self portrait.

Today I turned forty-three years old.

One of my favorite quotes is “I don’t know where we are going but I know exactly how to get there” from The Lion Tracker’s Guide to Life. I think that sums up the past year pretty well.

It’s been a long and challenging trip around the sun and I’ve been questioning a lot of decisions we’ve made recently. Moving to Scotland hasn’t been what we envisioned it would be and our house renovation gone bad hasn’t been a winner of an idea so far.

Despite all my moaning, there is plenty to be thankful for.

There was actual sunshine today in Glasgow. I got to spend the day having lunch with my wife, playing games in the afternoon with my kids and had a nice dinner with family in the evening. It was, all-in-all, a beautiful day.

In terms of goals for the next year, there was an interesting “icebreaker” question that we had in my work team hangout this week that led me back to my recent focus on self-acceptance and self-awareness.

The question was: if you could be the best at anything in the world, what would you pick?

Here was my answer:

I love making and drinking beer, but don’t want to be the best at those things. 🤣

I love drawing and painting, but you can’t really be the “best in the world” in those areas. You can be great at the technical aspects but, yeah, art is different for everyone so what would be “best”?

Being the best in the world at learning a language would probably unlock some amazing experiences (and if I could learn languages, what else could I learn right). But I dunno…

Ok, so I’m going to go too deep here probably. Haha. Here goes…

I would like to be the best in the world at accepting what I can change and what I cannot (i.e. not wanting more, not thinking about the future every second, accepting who I am with compassion).

This would be the thing that I think would make me the most “happy” and also the best way for me to give back. For every degree I can improve myself “inward”, I can generate another degree “outward”.

Don’t get me wrong, being the best skateboarder in the world would be pretty sweet, but as they say, mo money mo problems. 🤑

So that’s it, off for another year again. I’d like to think that this past year I’ve gotten a lot of feedback on my decision-making process so this time, I’ll be more prepared.

I don’t know whether I’ll be fully at peace with myself at forty-four, but I’m confident I can be at least a few degrees more, and that seems worth the effort.

6 responses

  1. Happy birthday, Nick! Glad to know you had a good birthday with your family.

    Here’s to many more trips around the sun!

    1. Thank you Chait. 😊

  2. Alvaro Gómez Avatar
    Alvaro Gómez

    Happy birthday from a fellow 1979er, Nick. I’m going to be visiting your neck of the woods in a couple of weeks, btw!

    1. Thanks Alvaro! Let’s connect if you are going to be in Glasgow.

  3. Happy belated Birthday!

  4. Thabo Tswana Avatar
    Thabo Tswana

    Happy belated birthday, Nick! Seems like the more trips you make around the sun, the more profound your outlook is on life.

    Here’s to many more!

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